Path to heartache

I felt this way before,
My heart had fallen for him,
I took the most ridiculous risk,
When I already knew the outcome.

Why do I keep going back,
To that heartache and pain?
To the guy who’ll only mistreat me,
Over and over again.

Love is blind, but is this truly love?
I feel the emotions,
I feel every single breath that I take,
But in the end I’m gasping for air.

When you have something so good,
So heart filling and complete,
Why are you doomed to unhappiness?
Only to settle for less…

They say memories last forever,
But what if you don’t want them to?
What if you wanted to erase that past that you hate so much,
Even though those are the memories that get you through the day…

I’ve been broken, torn apart,
And pieced back together,
With every hope that I had left,
Only to be ripped apart time after time.

To my heart, I’m filled with sorrow,
For having to put you through such pain,
To my mind, I am ungrateful,
For letting me make all of my mistakes.

To my soul I’m sorry,
Because it’s you that lives on,
And must live with the misery
That I’ve always only known…