Eternal Sleep

Been hurt before
suffering from aggravation.
Feel deprived of love
dying of starvation.

Never thought it would be you
now who can I turn to?
I'll turn to what I know how
stop applauding and take a bow.

Who can I talk to now
where will you be when I cry?
Will I find a way
to finally be ok?

I sit on the bed
with my mind made up.
I was ending this,
no chance to choke.

A silent prayer to God,
and I know I'll be ok.
As I close my eyes I feel
my soul float away.

One pill, two pill, til they're all gone
slowly drift back and fourth.
My head is spinning
and I go to the door.

Feet slip out from under me
I crash to the floor.
No regrets, don't turn back
I see the light from under my door.

My eyes begin to close
and I get flashes of your face.
I hate myself for leaving you
but my fate is what I alone choose.

This was my choice
left a letter to explain.
No it wasn't your fault
no one could see my pain.

If I don't have you after this,
will I have you later?
Or can you wait forever
while I drift off deep.

Going down and down
into the dark deep
forever I will wait for you
in an eternal sleep.