TRYING SO HARD

Why can't i please them?
I can't do anything right,
And do you think they even cared,
When i picked up that *f-ing* knife?

I just want them to love me,
I just want them to be proud,
But all i do is disappoint them,
Can't they hear me screaming so loud?

Parents are supposed to know,
When something is wrong,
If only they knew,
I've been unhappy for so long.

Why do they expect so much of me?
Life's just not fair,
I just want to be accepted,
If they only dared.

I just want to be happy,
but they have other plans,
Every time i get close,
they blow it away like the sands.

They say that they care,
But i know it's a lie,
If they cared they'd show it,
But all they do is sigh.

Telling me I'm screwing up,
And that i need to find new friends,
But if only they knew,
Friends are the only ones who can mend.

Try to understand me,
Then one day you'll see,
I can't be perfect,
So just let me be me!