Without You

We were only alone for three days
on the third you went away
you floated up to heaven
and there you shall stay

You are gone
i know that this is true
its hard to accept
that I'm here without you

I hate you for leaving
you abandoned me
how can i explain to them
you were my responsibility

I treated you like nothing
i hate myself for that
but you shouldn't have taken me seriously
you should have come to me and chat

What drove you to do this
i hold myself responsible
If only i had stopped you
I should have put away the pills

When i saw you
Lying on the cold floor
i couldn't speak at all
i just shut the door

I fell down to the ground
i did not scream
i just cried myself dry
wishing this was all a dream

I couldn't tell mum or dad
i couldn't take the blame
i grabbed my stuff
ran away feeling the shame

Before i left
i went back in to see you
covering you with a blanket
keeping you warm as you feel through

I hope your not watching
from up above
i have run away scared
not showing my love

Covered in mud
there i lay
trying to convince myself
everything is okay

I take a glass bottle
smash it on my skin
taking the shards of glass
cutting the veins within

I am coming up to get you
Even if you don't want me
you are my little brother
and that will always be