I did something I can’t forgive.

Hurt as ever I am screaming,
wake me up and hold me tight,
Tell me that I was dreaming
And the nightmare’s over tonight.
Because I saw something yesterday,
That I didn’t ever want to see,
And now the images will replay,
Deep in side of me.
I feel so much pain and guilt
My heart cries in deep regret,
Because this monster that I’ve built,
Is the most ugly thing I’ve met.
And just when I thought it was contained,
This virus began to spread,
And for starting this, I’m so ashamed,
Because someone might end up dead.
And I’m the who most deserves,
Not to get to live,
So I’ll stab a knife into my nerves,

I did something I can’t forgive.

Sam, I’m sorry sweetheart,
I know it was my fault,
that your skin is torn apart,
and your happiness at halt.
Nami, please will you forgive me,
For what I did to your precious skin,
For letting you be what you used to be,
Which led to the pain you feel within.
Jen I’m sorry that I helped you,
do what you did to yourself,
I know all that you have been through.
Why didn’t I do something else?
Courtney, I know what you have done,
And I’m sorry, for it all,
Your happiness that once shone,
has now began to fall.
Daniel, Stef, Ben and Kel,
I don’t know if it was me,
But I blame myself for how hard you fell,
From your self-injury.

I was the first to try this kind,
Of harm through body “art”,
And I know in my mind,
I’ll take blame for tearing them apart.
I can’t deal with this twisted regret,
I just don’t want to live,
I did something I can’t forget,

I did something I can’t forgive.

***Thank you for reading***