Not Me, Not I - dedicated 2 Lisa Pegg

I am sorry for the wrong impression i have placed upon U,
Quiet, cool, depressed - these r the qualities which aren't true,

Whenever you r near, I do not know how 2 act,
Freeze up, fear I may fail 2 keep my feelings intact, this is fact,

Like a rabbit caught in headlights it is paralysed,
My emotions r mixed, stuck; I cannot express myself - tranquilised,

Do not think I hate U; this is the complete contrast,
I appear 2 be quite distant, but I pray we will be 2gether at last,

When U r with me, I appear glum and sad,
Pls don't be fooled because deep down I am glad,

That 1 as enchanting as U approaches me with such open-mindedness,
Even though I'm @ my lowest, you always embrace me with your friendliness,

It hurts to think the times I have pushed U away,
U try 2 engage with me but it seems I have very little 2 say,

Talking 2 me must be like talking 2 a brick-wall,
U do all the talking, I do nothing but stall,

On the tip of my tongue - monotonous sounds,
U must think I'm boring, wish I wasn't around,

And 2 myself I think "Damn you've blown it" but it's hard 2 believe,
Because U prove me wrong every week as I hear U call "Hey Steve!"...

This person you see is NOT ME, NOT I!!