Words just aren't enough
to explain this feeling to you.
I search, and search
but nothing comes to mind.
There's too many words in the dictionary,
yet too many feelings I am overwhelmed with.
I can not describe,
the feeling of the blade.
Nor can I tell you of the pain in my heart.
All I can do,
is attempt to let go.
Let go of my pain up into the heavens.
My aunt tells me,
"Let go of your pain, Give it to God"
The God who is testing me as we speak?
The God who apparently "saves" yet I am still burning in the hell-fires of the world.
I searching for a reason.
Searching for a purpose.
Searching for words.
But nothing comes to mind.
