To Know

You won’t cry for me, I know
The pain inside me you won’t know
You pretend to love me, again
Soon that word will be so meaningless
I’d rather you wouldn’t say it at all
Keep the meaning of such a fragile word
You waste so much time on me
Its better that you just leave
And leave me to die all alone
I won’t cry again since the tears are all gone
I’m not dead but I’m still a walking corps
My eyes have nothing to give you
They are dead and silent inside
Do not moan for someone who is already dead
The smiles I give are forced from my gut
The laughs I share are pretend
I’d die just to know one thing
One thing that has been plaguing me
Do you really love me?
You tell everyone the same thing
It seems repetitive from you now
Nothing I can tell is true
Just another word from your mouth
I begin to wonder what is true
Nothing seems right anymore
Everything you say I don’t know
I can not believe that you really care
I am just another lost soul for you to heal
I do not care if I die now
I do not care if you say good bye now
All I want to know if what you say is true
Because I am lost in my darkened word
And each time you throw that word at me
The darkness seems to grow bigger
The loneliness only seems stronger
I’d die just to know one thing

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