In the End

I did something bad today
I didn’t mean to
And I know what you will say.
Its like before you found me, you already knew.
I tried not to do it. I didn’t want to disappoint.
In the end it got me, in the end my solution was the knife
The day started out good, I only smoked one joint.
Didn’t know by night, I’d have ended my life.
Mama started to scream and yell.
My brother disappeared.
My boyfriend just sat by and watched as I fell.
I sat on my floor and I cut too deep, just like you always feared.
Do you see the puddle of blood surrounding me,
What about the empty pill bottle and the knife in my chest.
I tried so hard to live life happy but this just couldn’t be.
In the end, I guess this is for the best.
I’m sorry I didn’t want this to be the end.
I’m sorry.
but thanks for being my only friend.

Hayley ©