Im 16 years old and now Im wishing I was 6, when dimatap cured my cough whenever I was sick. Now Im stuck with homework, and a load of responsibility, Im dying for a break, a day away from this chaosity
When I was younger I didnt have to fight for my parents affection, and now Im lying hand in hand with a thing I call rejection, it breaks me down daily, always fighting for kisses and hugs, now all Im aching for is razor blade and a dose of life threatening drugs.
They try so hard to be something theyre not, I was given away the day I was born and my life is all I got. They say every decision they make is the best for me, but if thats so then why cant they understand what I see, what I want, what I am to be?
When I was younger scrapes and bruises never hurt like they do now, my heart is broken, band aids dont work and Im trying to figure out now why did I let it get this bad, how could I let you damage my heart? Whyd we have to end this way, whyd we have to fall apart
Not to long ago I was lost in my mind, my thoughts were every where, I felt almost blind, I didnt know if you loved me, if you wanted me back, I thought if I died you would later on regret leaving my side, but I was wrong that was a fact.
Im sorry that drugs were better than me, that watching your baby girl grow up was just too hard to see, I know you had others and I wasnt the only one I just wish I was somewhere in your life, that what has happened could be un-done.
I dont feel alone anymore, I dont feel scared, I know that Im alright, no matter if you care. I have my life and my torn little soul; I know how to survive even if you let me go. I wont give up to find you. Ill do it some day, I just hope youre what I expect because I've been let down enough I cant even explain cause its been more than 10 ways.
