Again im the fool

I\'m sitting here wondering why Im not in your arms, I don\'t see why we are apart when you\'re the only one who holds the pieces of my heart. You say you love me but why ddon\'tyou prove it to me? Why can\'t you stick up for me? Why can\'t you believe in me? Am I really that ugly?

You make me feel worthless, you make me feel sad. you don\'t pay any attention to me unless your trying to make me mad. You think its ok to hurt me anyway and I\'m stupid think that your lies would go away.

You couldn\'t get why I would hurt myself to take the pain away. But you\'re the reason it started, you\'re the reason my pain wanted to stay. You couldn\'t stop playing games with my mind. you told me i was you\'re everything but how i still think you\'re lying.

I wish your eyes held some truth to me, I wish I could see the man you used to be. The one i fell in love with, the one who stole my heart, That man who broke me completely, who hurt me from the start.

I\'ve spent so much time trying to be what you need, and now I\'m alone, my body is dying to bleed, my body is aching for some release, I need you to come back to me, if not ill kill myself due to insanity...

Could I trust you? to be able to open up completely to you? to be your one again? to be your best friend, I don\'t see how you can hurt me if I\'m what you need, you pretend to stop just for me and yet i catch you wishing i would leave.

Come see me just to say goodbye, I will wait to slit my wrist and die, if for a moment I could be yours again, i will love you forever and to my end. I don\'t want you to regret loving me, i just want you to know that we were meant to be, and you just couldn\'t see that it was worth the tears i cried and all the times i tried to bleed.

This is my end, its quick and done, i have nobody left i have no where to run, as i fall into a deep sleep, i try to remember all the times you said you loved me, i try to forget all the times i cried myself to sleep, i know i\'m leaving, and most of you will cry, i\'m sorry that you care so much for me, cuase in the end you knew I\'d die.