Why is it so easy to hurt me

Your touch is like a blade, it hurt so much but it doesn’t cut as deep, it still makes me cry, it still makes me bleed, it breaks my heart, it breaks my soul, I wish so much I could let you go.

You make all sorts of promises but I don’t get why, you break every single one, without any effort to try, I don’t know why I trusted you, why I thought you would understand, all I needed was a friend willing to lead a hand.

You saw me crying, why didn’t you stay? Why did you leave me, why’d you go away? Why couldn’t you help me, why couldn’t you care, why am I always the one willing to dare?

I wish I knew what was good for me, I kept going back to you and it was killing me, deep inside I was alone, cold and scared, I wanted nothing more than a place to call home.

You left me, for what? A girl, a fling, a friend, a wife to give a ring? Why did you have to leave me? Why did you friends have that control over you to hate me?

I thought changing for you would be enough to keep you next to me, I thought if I did that you wouldn’t have a reason to leave me, I was wrong, you left me even though I tried, you didn’t care for me, for my life, or if I ever cried.

I tried ending this the easy way and now I end my life as the price to pay, living isn’t worth anything if your not around to love me, I need your arms around me, as strength to prove that I’m me.

I don’t know how to say goodbye if I did, my easy way out wouldn’t have anything to do with wanting to die. I hope it doesn’t bother you when they tell you of my death, I hope that you’ll be happy that I’m finally in peace and at rest