My So Called Life...

So much pain and sadness
Now fill up each day
And no matter how hard I try
It won’t seem to go away

I hate how I'm always fake
And am always forced to lie
I just don't want anyone to know
That each night I pray to die

I've messed up all the good things
In this my so called life
And this is why my days
Are filled with so much strife

I don't know why I bother
To try and win this fight
When nothing I ever do
Is even considered right

And all these things in life
Are just to much to take
And I'm getting really frustrated
With all the mistakes I make

And I’ve been trying so hard
To find a better place
When even in the end
Ill just be a disgrace

And all this pain inside
Is too much to ignore
And I'm so sorry to everyone
I just can’t take this anymore....

..yes i know its crap...
..vote and comment if you choose....