I let temptation take over my mind, body and soul
It's not a matter of fitting in or being cool
It makes me feel like I'm in control, since things at home I cannot fix
The pain builds to wanting to feel numb, not caring i still can't believe
How I wish things could be the same so I wouldn't have to play this stupid little game
I am what I am, but me, I cannot recognize
I feel trapped where no where to go
I'm supposed to set a good example shes younger than me!
I can't believe where it led up to be, she is my everything.The love that I feel for her is so strong and deep, slowly it bleeds.
Drugs have become an escape, I forgot about the family that never became a family
I'm no longer stressed or had deep thoughts of why I'm not worthy
Right from wrong is so easy to see
Constantly feeling like I don't even know the real me
I never thought I would place anything before the ones that I love, yet at that moment, at that time it's so easy
I see my future with no road to follow, no hand to hold
My hope has now completely been faded, things will never be the way it's meant to be
No love will be shown or felt
Closed doors i see on my face
The KNIFE cuts deeper and deeper, the blood numbs my feelings, I can now breath slowly
Trusting can't be done they'll only let go
My righteousness is no longer there
Steeping into darkness feels like I'm alive!, I'm no longer trapped, this is where I belong
I'm covered with sadness, numbness,hatred, depression all this is.
Covered with darkness that blends in my life
In darkness I feel I belong, but realizing that I no longer feel, I no longer love, I don't seem to care
My thoughts are blank for caring.
My heart is filled with this FEELING i can't explain
Hearing the beat of my heart makes me anxious
Make this beat stop, let my life drop
There's no longer a meaning to life, cutting is no longer enough
My life I'll have to take so I can no longer see what I cannot fix
Feel what disappeared, let go of that breath that I've been holding so tightly from, and
Dream Deeply of what I wish
we could of always been
