Death from Love

My heart is racing
as I see her face
as I try to talk
there is no space
the walls are enclosing
the air gets dense
as time goes by
i lose patience
i tell her my thoughts
i tell her my part
of the one special thing
that she holds. my heart
I let her know
how I feel
So she can take it away
or make it real
thoughts in my mind
go through my head
thinking what have i done
what have i said
a moment of silence
went on between us
not one breathe of air
not one little shush
i turned around
and said goodbye
for at that moment
my heart had died
but that is life
one thing i won't miss
is taking chances
or taking risks
without risks
what does life mean
there's no where to fall
no where to lean
better to have loved and lost
than to have never loved at all
so i took that chance, took a dive
and on my face, did i fall
nothing can ever change the way
I ever felt for her
i say its OK and try to smile
but all i feel is anger
a rampage goes on inside of me
sadness fills my veins
this riot i feel is out of control
one i can't contain
this pen i hold in my hand
this last poem that i wrote
should explain why i took this knife
and slit my own throat