Leaving You Behind

You say I’m fine and to be strong
You’re confident there’s nothing wrong
I cry at night and scream inside
To end it, everything I’ve tried
It’s there, it stuck and digging deep
Holes in heart and soul ripped steep
I’m boiling and blood is pounding
Visions and thoughts keep resounding
You’re in my head, will you please leave?
I lived this hell you have to believe
You did this to me and it won’t go away
The moments you planted they chose to stay
I dig at my skin to rip your thought out
It hurts so much I just scream and shout
I can’t get away, it’s inside my head
Everything you did, all that you said
It’s festered and it’s wearing me down
Give me time and I’ll breakdown
I can’t take this, it wasn’t for me
How could you do this couldn’t you see?
This wasn’t fair, it was not my choice
But I was young, and I had no voice
You rotted my mind and tortured my soul
I wonder right now if that was your goal
I fall asleep and awake distressed
What you did, I strongly detest
I cry this story as my last straw
The words are true, the visions raw
It’s in my mind, that nightmarish time
What you did to me was crime
You got away with it and you laugh at me inside
God tell me, is there anything I haven’t tried?
There is one thing a last resort
A thing that works, it helps distort
It makes your wrongs just seep away
This thing that refuses to betray
I take the knife, and slice it shallow
Thoughts are amble, calm and mellow
Pain overflows and runs-down your thought
Bleeding me dry, this method I sought
I fall to the floor amidst all the blood
It’s pouring now starting to flood
It’s getting cold, and i\'m going numb
A blissful song I start to hum
I dying now and I smile inside
As your thoughts and memories subside
The end is near I can feel it coming
Angels have gathered, smiling and humming
They set me free from the pain you caused
I walk to them but then I pause
I say good-bye to the memories of you
I left you behind, your torturing is through

***Sorry it sucks... i needed to vent... Let me know what you think! I know it gets a little shaky around the middle... but oh well...***
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