Sitting all alone in darkness, here I choose to hide
You say you know me but you don't, you've never even tried
You tell them that I'm lying, but you don't even know
You never even asked me, get away from me just go
You say that I just made it up, it never did take place
But that's not true, it did occur & now it won't erase
He did it & I know it & I know he knows it too
But no one now believes me cuz these rumors spread by you
You think that you are special, that you're the only one
But you were wrong so listen, my story's just begun
He did this long ago to me, this thing that you don't believe
I know it's true, cuz inside me... these memories won't leave
For if I give them just a chance, they'll rear their ugly head
And then I cannot sleep at night, I lie awake in bed
These memories are just so real to me that I just cry
Tell me how I made this up... how is this a lie?
I think about it & I scream, I cannot run away
I see & feel everything he's done to me each day
I panic now, I'm overwhelmed & there's nothing I can do
Just stick it out & wait until these memories are through
If I made it up... then why is this so real?
These nightmares & hallucinations, why can't I just deal?
They just won't seem to go away, & I can't make them stop
Now I hope you believe my "story", down to the last drop
You're not the only one... but don't think that I'm proud
I write these words to you because... they're hard to say aloud
I wasn't lying... I couldn't have been... EVERY THING'S so REAL!
& if you still don't believe me, then these memories please steal
I didn't lie or make it up, he did those things to me
I just wish I could prove it now, for EVERYONE to see!
***please vote and comment, this was a personal poem but I'm working on my issues so I decided to share***
