My life

I am caught up in all of my lies,
I am hidden from this disguise.
I pretend my life is going good,
But it’s not, you misunderstood.
I cut my wrists, I enjoy the pain,
I hope to cut a major vein.
Then I don’t have to stay in this place,
I will never have to be called a big disgrace.
Someday Ill end it, ill be in peace,
I am waiting for this day I will call my big release.
People get in my face and call me a freak,
But deep inside you’ll find I’m rather unique,
Let’s see people act like they don’t even exist,
I bet that would raise a couple of fists.
People think they need to be noticed in order to live a good life,
When all I need to be happy is a simple slash of a knife.
No matter how much I want to cry,
No tears will ever fall from my eye.
Outside I see a bright, beautiful star,
I wish that I could touch it but it is too far.
All I need in life is a little shine, a little glow,
With all of those little things my value in life would surely grow.