I've come so close to
ending my life
I've already damaged myself
I did stupid things
Just so I could go numb
So I wouldn't have to feel
The pain in my life
I cry on the inside
I feel as if
I haven't a reason to live
I feel so messed up inside
I screwed up my body
I wish I could go back
I wish I would've stopped myself
But I didn't
I couldn't
I lie to myself
I tell myself that
I never did what I did
I never harmed myself
I will never hurt my body
I couldn't
I can't see clearly anymore
I can't tell
The truth from all the lies
I look at myself and see scars
I know that I don't have scars
I couldn't cut my wrists
I couldn't cut myself
I couldn't kill myself
I couldn't
