I have no clue how I believed you. How could I not tell you were lying? But I guess now there is nothing I can do. I just sit crying. I feel the deep stage of depression coming again. I did nothing to deserve this! I feel like one big sin. All the stupid things Ive done, and all the stupid lies. Theyre building up inside me and I can tell theyve now shown. After all the silent cries, I still dont get it. I am sick of all this shit. I so badly wanna let go. This feeling of shame. No one will ever know, about me and my mind game.
