Now what am i gonna do?
to stop dreaming about you
I feel like such a fool
I should of seen it coming
What i fool i have been
to even think
that there could be something here again between us
but reality checked in last night
when we talked online
you don't want me
you could never love me again
'cause u just want to be friends'
I have been through 4 years of tears, trying to hide my feelings for you, but they would slip out at times
and you kept telling me no this can't be, but my heart wouldn't listen
my dreams weren't listening either
I told everybody about you
and they probably all thought
this girl is foolish
to even have that thought
that something could happen
there again
No wonder you don't want to be with me anymore or ever again
look at you
your a tall, hot, dark, gorgeous man
from your head to your feet
why would you fall in love with me again
I was prettier when we were younger
when we were together back then
but two kids later(not with you with two different men)
I don't look pretty anymore
nor I am as small as I used to be either
don't blame you
when you have beautiful skinny foreign women over there
You want to still remain friends
really good, close friends
but you had your chance
several times with me over the last 4 years
now i have to try
to let go
I have to stop
your are like a drug
very addictive
my brain is telling me to stop
but my heart says no
you can't he's the one
he just needs time
my heart keeps telling me
while you are over here on this side of world dreaming of him
he is on other side of world with other woman
what can you do right?
I want him in my life
I can't let him go
but these feelings have to end
NOW!
This foolish girl
needs to move on
because this foolish girl was stupid to think
that "this" thing could ever go on
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This poem is about the other guy that I am in love with, only for that he is also my best friend in the entire world. He doesn't realize that he really hurt my feelings on this night. This isn't really a poem, some venting on "paper" I suppose. Thanks so much for taking the time to read it.
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