CONFIDENTIALLY SAD

Behind a cunning smile
I protect the real true me
concealed deep down inside
where no-one else can see.

Behind a performers smile
I play the part so well
damaged and frustrated but
no-one could ever tell.

Behind a mischievous smile
I purport to be so "bad"
so no-one sees the truth
that I'm confidentially sad.

Behind a cheeky smile
I dramatize I'm the "best"
I put on courtesan shows
and pass their deviant "tests".

Behind a lascivious smile
I parade just for the boys
It dictates to them I'm happy
and they exploit me as their toy.

Behind a timid smile
I glance at you to see
if you've fallen for my show
or if you see the "real true me".