I'll be just fine...Pretending I'm not...I'm far from lonely...And it's all that I've got...I fall to pieces
and your all that I've got
god i wish i could tell you what i want to say. that i love you so much and you mean everything to me. my heart hurts so bad that i want to die. nothing will stop my pain and i can't take it anymore. god d**n this f**king conscience of mine. it holds me back because i know the answer i will receive if i spill out my secret. i love you and i want to scream it at your face because you don't know it. haven't you ever noticed if u say something then i get all fluttery? its because just the sound of your voice makes me float off the ground and up to a cloud where i lay and think of you while your on the phone. then i think about you for days but when the memory fades i sink back down into depression because i miss you so much and i wish i could tell u all of this but I'm so scared u wont talk to me anymore. I've tried to leave it alone and let it pass like i have times before. but this time if different almost as if i depend on you to survive and keep me from killing myself. from drowning in a pool of my own blood. I'm on the edge of a cliff and i hold onto your hand it keeps me from falling but now my I'm losing grip and I'm slowly starting to fall. no body knows about this and if i tell them i fear i break down in tears but i can't bring myself to them. inside my soul cries and has for months almost a year now and it hurts so bad. your my soul mate my one true love but this mustn't be said again so for now you can go and live your life but you'll never know that your are mine...
