Nights lost

A note book full of pain. the words you can not bare. reading them and you o seem so so pail. remembering the pain remembering how it felt. hurting yourself night after night as you dad got high and your mom fell asleep. you'd sit there and cut. cut till there was nothing left until you fell asleep all alone. hoping not to wake up the next day. your eyes stop focusing. you see nothing and no one. the music blares as you cry. why do you do this to your self why cant you stop. every dull everything meaningless. like your life dead and ending. live in your own world. full of pain and hate. no one knows no one cares. if you die will they notice or will they go on. will someone miss you or will you be forgotten.

everyone needs that feeling of love. everyone needs to hear. the words of love and care. because in a world of hate love is lost with life. never to be renewed replenished. dieing in hate is what kills us so. when every thing is lost and never to be renewed.