Unstable,
out of control,
unable to keep my mind right,
unknowing and unwilling,
but i try for whats right,
but i can find or c it anymore,
everything is so blurry now,
nothing makes sense to me,
is all so cluttered,
so confused within me,
i cant control it anymore,
everything is going wrong,
i cant control it,
I'm afraid I'm going to loose control,
and loose all the things i have,
but its so hard to keep on track,
I'm scared of myself,
I'm scarring people now,
its just so hard,
i cant stand it,
i just wish it was easier,
easier to live the life i live,
but nothing is easy here,
its all out of control,
will i be able to keep it in,
or will i explode and let it all out,
and lose it all, i may never know,
until then
