Some fears

Day after day
I dream of life
of a future, of tomorrow

I dream of what it can become
of what it could be
but not how I can get there

When day brings day
and life brings more life
I will be on the sidelines

Wishing, waiting, dreaming
of what should of, could of been

How do I get myself out of this rut
Where do I tread?
This rut is getting deeper,
my hopes are fading faster

As dreams carry forth hopes,
I shall be carrying nothing
as the way things are

I dream of a wife
and kids throughout the house
I dream of the wedding
the in-laws and all

but where will i find her
when will i find her
how will i find her

I am growing stagnate
still nothing changes me

I see it coming
but don't have the power to stop

oh so soon at this rate,
i will be 35, single, and depressed
is this my stalemate?

how do i change
where do i start
how can i fix whats broken

A broken computer doesn't fix itself
just as a car can't repair itself
a computer needs a technician
just as a car needs a mechanic

where will i find a shrink,
the one who fixes me