I counted the days until you came from New York
Then I get a call...
"Chad is not coming"
I was so angry.
I feel as if I don't exist to you
I guess the brother I knew as a little girl...
Is gone.
I was hoping since we are a few years older
And a few years wiser...
That it would change.
But now I realize that I have lost my brother.
Lost him to New York,
Lost him to his fiancee,
Lost him for good.
It pains me every time you say you'll come...
But you never do.
Its been over four years now...
I think you can take some time to see your family....
This is for my brother, Chad. Whom, I feel, I have lost.....
