The darkness washes over me
covering every inch of me
i see you in the distance
you are leaving
i know life will never be the same
the pain has not hit yet
but it will
like a thousand burning knives
as you walk away
i feel more alone than i’ve felt before
how could i do this
i caused this, i did this to myself
i killed my soul, covered it
in total darkness
i am completely alone
and it’s my fault
i pushed you away
you left, and now i’m alone.
alone in the world with nothing
absolutely nothing
nothing to help me live
dying will be easier
once the pain hits
here come the tears
i have no control
i do not know what i’m doing
i’m standing in that field
as you walk out of my life
i want to scream your name
why can’t i scream?
why can’t i make a noise?
i cannot cry out to you
to tell you i have just made
the biggest mistake of my life
here comes the pain
as you leave my sight
but i deserve this
i caused this
all of this
you are gone and it’s all my fault
i did this and now
i am going to die
i get the razor from my pocket
slice my veins one last time
the blood flows and i collapse
there in that field
is where i’ll die
