I think I'm fading

This is the truth, in it's full form
It's beginning to be like a twisting storm
Swirling around until early morn
Crying itself to sleep
It dies and crawls to my feet
Nothing survived, nothing at all
This is where the darkness falls
Scattered around like glass pieces
I've yet to give life a thesis

Popping pills and doing drugs
I didn't think I'd end up like a thug
Lying here on this invisible rug
Just waiting to get mugged;
Waiting here while darkness tugs

Even though you'll never remember me
and I know you're not my enemy
I'd have hoped you'd defend me
But now I know I lost another asset
My friends are gone...who's friends with an accident?

So I try to find a reason
But this cold is definitely a part of the season
Because all this darkness has got me freezin'

I kept everything inside until the day I died
I got so far and I held it in
Much like a balloon near a pin
I popped and everything came out
Now my silence has become a shout
I think this is my final bout

Now you think it's about suicide
To tell you the truth i's not me who died
Its my personality and its emotional fatality

I think I'm fading
All my colors are bleeding to one
As I sit here I add up this sum
To get to my only answer, the only one
That the cause of this is me and my wasted life,
Listening to the darkness and ignoring the light...
Sitting here all alone, I'm freezing
By my lonesome, I'm bleeding.