Suicide Tears

by niko   Mar 14, 2005


You say I'm worthless
And I believe you
But it's only my depression
That's not what I'd really do

If it were up to me
I'd beat you down
Not let you get away with
The $h!+ you spread around

But instead I go home
Pretend like everythings ok
Till I get to my room
And break down for the day

I cry over all
The sharp words you've said
All the rumors you've started
Make me try to make myself dead

I guess you don't know
That what you say is really true
That I do cut and I do bleed
Because I'm one of the school's suicidal few

So I pick up my knife
And pray that it'll soon be done
That I won't have to worry about you
Or seeing another sun

I start to cut
It's addicting, I can't stop
Until my blood comes so easily
It makes me drop

I wake up hours later
Drowning in my blood
Wishing I hadn't started
This overwhelming flood

Then later at night
I think over all my fears
And hope someday
I won't have to hide my tears

My suicide tears
Cry me to sleep
In the morning I pull out mask
From down inside me, deep

I go back to school
Like there's nothing new
And hope no one notices
My skin fading blue

I go through my day
And it all happens again
Soon it'll end
Thanks to my knife, my only friend

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  • 19 years ago

    by liz

    aww hunni i can so relate to this poem. i think your very talented.and the people that say the knife is your enemy,for the cutters its not its like heaven..and its not that easy to just stop doing it! so give it some time and work out the problems one at a time.!

  • 19 years ago

    by asdfg

    Wow!! Amazing poem. You've got talent. Also, some kids in my school are like the person you portray in your poem. Erm, I can sort of relate to it. Although, the knife is your enemy, not your friend..

  • 19 years ago

    by tragic

    your knife is the enemy though it may seem like a friend but what may be good for the moment can have tragic impact on you in the future in this case maybe no future and i know its complicated you cant just stop the truth is the truth will set you free i kept a lot of shit inside and it just kept eating me from the inside out i still have that problem and know one deserves it especially you dont hide anything even it means you have to sacrifice something but trust me anything is worth sacrificing for your own sake, your happyness, and your life. You cant do something unless you believe you can.

  • 19 years ago

    by A Broken Bleeding Soul

    Wow thats an amazing poem... keep up the good work... youre very talented... please read some of my poems if you have the chance... i would appreciate it. thanks ~ Tina

  • 19 years ago

    by Hoover

    Good Poem
    *5/5*
    read sum of my stuff if you get the chance

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