That's Life

I thought I was dead
On that sad rainy day.
Watching the rain
And crying away,
I pulled the box
From under the bed,
Took the gun
And put it to my head.
Wanting to pull the trigger
'Cause I thought my life was bad.
Then I realized if I died
How many would be sad.
I put the gun on the desk
And closed my eyes,
Then thought
And decided it was wise,
Not to put anyone through
More pain and misery.
Didn't want them to suffer,
So I just let it be.
So here I am today
Still going through the same s**t.
I don't think anyone loves me
So I'm still in the pits.
I just wish someone would tell me
How much they really care.
I don't think I can take
Anymore wear and tear.
Why does it have to be me,
That goes through this s**t?
But I guess that's life
And I have to deal with it.