On my bedroom floor

I didn't know what I'd be saying
Death was knocking at my door.
But I just sat there praying
On my bedroom floor.

I said God are you there?
If you are listen please
Sometimes I just don't care
But tonight I'm on my knees.

I know my life is my own.
I've lived it best I can
But I don't know where I'm going
And no one understands.

Hear me out hear my voice
I've made this my final call
Death can be my only choice
It's time to end it all.

I've been cut till I bled
Been hurt by all the sadness
Heard the voices in my head
Say give in to the madness.

I am so tired of trying
To be what I can't be.
I just feel like my dying
Is what will make all of them see.

That I just got so very lonely
My life just went so very bad.
I know people say if only
I could be happy instead of sad.

Tonight I'll be free of this rage
Exploding in my mind
My name will head the obit page
In the morning for people to find.

I know my mom will miss me
My dad will finally come home
Their tears will fall as they kiss me
Before they put my name in stone.

People will say I was too young
My life ended way too soon
I was crazy to get that gun
I would have been 15 this coming June.

Maybe I'm just talking
Because I don't know what to do.
I just kept on walking
Till I brought myself to pray to you.

Is this the only answer
Or am I making a big mistake?
Would Mom help me if I asked her
Before I made this my final take?

God do you hear what I'm saying?
Help me see that there is more
To my life as I'm praying
Tonight on my bedroom floor.