I want you to feel my pain

How come eveyone knew
and i didn't?
How could you tell them all
and not tell me?
Why did I give you my heart
when i got nothing in return?

I want you to feel my pain,
bleed my blood,
hold in your heart
the secret of a thousand hurts
and the burn of a thousand lies.
And then you can come to me and say
"I'm sorry ... I love her"
And point to my friend
who went behind my back
and took the one thing
that could make me happy
... you ...

But you allowed her!
You knew what she was doing
and you didn't stop her.
You let her pull us apart.
You let her rip my heart out
and throw it on the ground;
and with her
you stomped on it
with the weight of your lies.

Then she carried you off
into the night;
and with you she took my heart,
mangled and beaten,
from lies, tears, and treachery.
And it was screaming,
"Take me now!!
What have I done to deserve this?
I loved you,
wasn't that enough?"

You lied to me.
You thought you could use me
as a quick fix
when you needed a lift.
What made you think
I could be treated this way?
I've done nothing but love you
and you crucified my feelings for you.

I want you to walk over to me now,
and look me in the eyes,
and tell me what it is about her
that made you feel the need to hurt me.
Dont lie anymore!
I cant handle it!
I want the truth!
I'll find out anyway,
I always do.
And it will hurt even more then.
So spare me the pain
and the sensation
of falling through a black hole,
and tell me now.

Theres no need to protect me,
especially since you didn't care too much
that you were hurting me
when you ran off with her.
And now you care how I feel?

But despite your arrogance
and despite your need to bring me down
I will say this:
I will always be here for you
to help you ...

... to help you do what you did to me.
To rip out your heart,
and stomp on it with steel boots
of anger and frustration,
and throw it off the highest peak
of the tallest mountain.
And when you finally feel my pain,
bleed my blood,
and carry the burden of a thousand secrets,
and feel the burn of a thousand lies,
then you can come crawling back to me on hands and knees ...

... and I'll be waiting for you ...

... and I'll be smiling triumphantly at your misfortune
like you have done to me
so many times.

... let me know what you think ...