Is this life?

A Beating heart, a loud sigh
my world falls from the sky.
crash and burn, a huge mark.
another love, with a spark
a innocent smile and sparkling eyes
hurt, threw so many lies.
another failed attempt to life
another slit with a knife.
waiting for it all to end.
watching my life break and bend.
never got a chance at all.
all i got to do was fall.
hard landings forever broke.
burning in fire,choking in smoke
living a life, in nothing but pain
head spinning,going insane.
can my life be differnt? or is this
all i get.
do i have a choice, or is my life already set?