Searching

No one really knows,
the pain I feel inside.
No one will ever know,
All the endless nights I've cried.
No one will ever see,
All the holes left in my heart.
Never can they replace,
Every single missing part.
The pieces fall to the ground,
Shattering as they land.
Never to be put back together,
Still searching for his hand.
Remembering the good times,
Holding on to all the bad.
Searching, I will always be,
For something I never had.

~to the father i never had~