I think Ill never love again

I’m sitting here
Thinking bout
What I’m going to do
Without u in my life
How am I going to be able to take this pain?
And live on fine
Without you here beside me
We went threw so much
In the past yes it’s true
So when I think of the past I’m lonely
My heart aches and I feel it drop
How can u understand how I feel right now?
How can u understand what you’ve done to me?
I never want to love again
Because of what you’ve don’t to me
We were friends
Then a little bit more
It didn’t matter that we weren’t going out
We still had fun and stayed friends at the same time
But then you became cold
And nothing mattered to you anymore, not even me
Let me tell you how it feels
It like every day I die
How when I think of how it used to be
My hearts cracks a little more
How I wonder if you think of me?
Like I think of u all the time
Baby do u even remember how it was before?
Or do you just not care anymore
If you want the truth
Well boy i\'m not alright
How can you just forget about me?
Or so it seems
When your scent, your voice, your touch
Is still stuck in my mind
Don’t want to live
Just want to die
Because without you here
I’m so lonely it’s beyond me
I just can’t take this pain anymore
I’m trying to get over you so much
I hate you
I try to make myself think
I hate your fvcking guts
I want you to disappear
But you won’t
I see you everyday
And the pain and memories come back again and again
Wish I was dreaming but it’s real
I think that I will never love again