Last testimony

Silence is a death sentence
when I am angered.
Darkness is a refuge
when all seems lost.
Pain is a method
of becoming aware.
Scars are a reminder
of where I've been.
Blood is a symbol
of suffering.
Not all is as it seems;
I'm not deadly,
just disatisfied.
All I want
is to be happy again,
to be myself,
and if this is the first step...

...so be it...

I know, it kinda sucks, like badly, but this is how I avoid...doing stupid things.