Throwing it Away

Desperate for something more
looking whole, but feeling torn
feeling hurt, but no one knows
if they do, it never shows
you think that I'm happy
but you don't know me
you just see my "smile"
I'm hurting all the while
i wont do anything bad
i wont cut when I'm mad

i dint wanna hurt inside
but i dunno how much longer i can hide
every night i cry myself to sleep
i don't want anyone to see me weep
bitter tears are all i know
more than i should, i want them to go
but they wont leave if i don't try
so to my pain, i say goodbye
I'm choosing a smile, one i know is true
I'm choosing a life, I'm changing it right on cue
if i didn't do this before, i could have done something wrong
if i didn't change, it wouldn't have been long

I'm taking this pain, and throwing it away
away it will go, away it will stay

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