Goodbye

For Kellie

You left me in the shadows,
In dark clouds of gray,
To face this dreadful world alone.

Tears fell like the rain,
My heart cried silently,
But I faced it, I faced it alone.

Shower of darkness,
cascade of fears,
So many days,
so many tears.
But I faced it, I faced it alone.

Invisible cuts appear,
Icy tears begin to fall,
But why do they still come, when I have it all?

I have my friends and my gorgeous girl,
You’d think I’d be happy, I have the world,
But since you’ve been gone, My life is just dark,
You stripped away the colour,
It’s all sheer and stark.
And I feel like I am fighting with nothing at all to gain,
because every second I live, I do so in pain.

every second of every minute of every hour of every day,
of every week, of every month, of every year,
I will see you, in my mind,
and every time that this happens, every day of my life,
A new sting will appear.

Because separation is murder,
without a proper goodbye,
It’s killing me gently,
I’m beginning to die.

I cried my tears,
and just asked for one thing,
But the one thing I wanted,
They couldn’t bring.
All I want is some hope and not to want to die,
All I really want is a proper goodbye.