Save me later

I'm in this situation again,
Where I always seem to get myself drenched in pain,
I love my life,
I hate my life,
I'm always the one who's in strife,
Someone listen,
Someone help,
This'll be the last time I'll give a yelp,
A fake smile,
Is so easy to put up on my dial,
The slitting and crying,
And all those thoughts of dying,
I lost him,
He's the one who made me feel as if i wasn't a sin,
He's gone now,

Slit me now,
Shoot me now,
Murder me now,
Slash me now,
If it takes a moments pain,
To reach heaven and be with my man again,
Kill me now and save me later..