I think of you and my heart behaves
Erratic and senseless, a giant wave
Of molten lava out of control
As it wends its way over grassy knolls
Into the sea, bubbling and spluttering, a catastrophe.
Then it can change to calm and quiet so deceptively,
Before it again crashes and burns, destroying me.
Why is this effect so dramatic and strong?
When all that I want is for us to belong?
Couldn't you notice, couldn't you see
The way I behave is ridiculously
Far from the norm and that I have to be
Totally smitten, head over heals
Longing and lusting wishing you’d feel
Just a little something, but then that’s me?
I don’t think it will happen and truthfully,
I’m like the old dog that chases cars
If I ever caught one – well you know how they are.
Sorrow, self pity and a broken heart
Are par for the course and all a part
Of growing, maturing, understanding the rules
Providing each one of us so many tools
But it doesn’t matter the way that I feel
Or discourage me hoping that somehow that we’ll
See each other across a crowded room
Our eyes will lock and I’ll hear a tune.
Maybe I should send you a romantic note
Sent from an admirer with a famous quote
Hang from the flagpole, sing you a song
Run through the classrooms wearing only a thong
Prostrate myself right at your feet
Or send you a CD so you can hear my heart beat
Maybe some courage wouldn’t go astray
And I should walk up to you and say what I say
Maybe tomorrow it can’t be today
When I know what I’m doing and I’ve planned what to say
Maybe tomorrow I’ll have a backbone
Maybe tomorrow……..but for now I’ll go home.
