Regret

My world is overshadowed
By a darkness black and cold
I want to shake it off
And again it does enfold

I am not able to control
My life now any longer
I am sick of this fighting
Against myself, I am not getting stronger

I LOVE HER, so much it's killing me
But she does not realize
To her I am nothing
Just a friend in her eyes

I take my knife and stab myself
Though not enough to kill
My cutting it does ease my pain
The emptiness it does fill

But no one notices how I am feeling
No one sees and I don't care
I wish they did but I know they don't
For me they don't seem to be there

I hate being alive, I want to die
I want to just be dead
But I dont want to hurt the ones I love
So I mess myself up instead