I want to go

I am so tired
I feel so weighed down
Weakly I stumble
Falling down

No happiness remains
I fell too far
Like a falling child
A darkened star

I cry my blood
My pain and hate
I had forgotten
This was my fate

So numb and lonely
I want to go
I love her
But she doesnt know

Breaking my heart
Hurting my hopes
Tying me down
Slitting my throat

Becoming a shadow
Of who I used to be
No longer a person
No longer katie

It is no longer strange
That I want to die
If every day
I cry and cry