Lonliness

I am filled with these fillings, do depressed
So alone and so distressed
I am filling with this longing for love and care
I can never tell if it is there

Sinking into a see of pain
Pouring on top of my head again
Screaming and yelling but no-one hears
Surrounded by my thoughts and fears

Looking for a hand to pull me through
Reaching out but just feeling blue
No one believes the words I say
When I spill my heart into my poems every day

My mind is like a storm, filled with thunder
Pulling me down, pulling me under
Alone I am and that is the way it will be
Staring away from the person I can never be

I want someone in whom I can confide
Where I no longer have to hide
Alone in the dark, where it swallows me up
Bleeding silently from another cut

Crying out, and destroying my room
Everything reminds me of the person whom
I have turned out as unloved and so bitter
Words of sadness, under my breath I do mutter