Mistery of feelings

If I was to really tell you
What is really wrong with me
You would never understand
Because the truth is to hard to see
I deny all my emotions
And the feelings in my heart
Just incase you thought of asking
I could say there’s nothing wrong
I could build a shield around me
So that you could never see
And when you ask what’s going on
I could lie
And you’ll believe
I make sure I keep a smile on
That would never fade away
But as soon as tears start forming
I avoid looking your way
When I feel like a total failure
I try hard to build a wall
But the truth is you inspire me
And make it hard for me to fall

By now I know I sound confusing
And you still don’t know what’s wrong
The truth is I don’t plan on telling you
So ether you know
Or you’ll never know