A cut not deep enough

Last night
I did it again,
Got desperate
Didn't know where to run
Couldn't find the scissors
Had to use my nails
I scratched and scratched..
Just a little blood
Practically nothing

I got so mad
Where was my razor?
I must have misplaced on it

So disappointed..
The feeling of release and happiness
Did not come
My fingernails no longer satisfy my desire of escape
I need more,
I want to see more blood..
That cut wasn't deep enough!