White Teddy Bear©

I try to hide the growing pain
inside deep it stays
I just want to kiss his face
deep inside my dreams I may
I want to to cut
and release the aching pain
I don't know what to do anymore
will it ever go away
I curse at myself for being a fool
and take out this shiny blade
tonight I'll forget the pain
forget I was even here
Can't you see your the reason
I sit here slicing my viens
I just need to leave
get far far away
You don't undestand why I'm cutting
You break down and cry in despair
the night I took my last breath
I was holding onto the white teddybear
not able to release my tight grasp
the teddy bear close
to my motionless chest
they put it in with me in my casket
to let my body rest in peace
the nights go slowly by
I only had this friendly blade
you are the reason for my aching pain
the ground my finally resting place