A grey way of life

Depressed and feeling it.
i don't want to see you anymore, but when i do see you,i see a Grey way of life. nothing is happy anymore to me, life is torture why am i being punished for something i didn't even ask for?
i stand here and wonder...is it me who always screws up? i hate the man that stands to close. i hate him. and now its my Grey way of life.