Wondering

I used to live inside a home
And sometimes when i was alone,
I'd sit there thinking what would happen
But i guess i should have known

I sat and wondered was i dreaming
All my life I'd heard this screaming
It would end if i were die
Or should i spend this time redeeming?

And when i was alone in my bed
I wondered if i should be dead
But then i thought of what would happen
If i stuck around instead

So still i sit here and i wonder
All my hopes and dreams go under
I sit and keep myself together
To stop my from falling asunder