omg, Sierra! That was a remarkable flow of creative genius, but you better not die, I would simply just freak out! I wish I could give you a hug! ::Internet Hug:: There are too many people that lov you, Zac, me, and countless others. Lov ya to pieces,
**Car**

awwwww thank you guys!!! No, I'm not going to die!!!! Mel, I'm so,....glad? lol that I made you cry. I'm glad it touched someone. I just wrote what was on my mind. I keep looking at that knife, so tempted-but I think of Nick and Zac and Carlee and I just can't hurt them. I can hurt myself, that's one thing, but to hurt innocent people, that's just wrong, so I'm not. But it def. hurts. Thanks you guys soooo much!!! I'm so happy you guys like this!!!!

Much loves to both! *Cyber hug* 2 both of you!!

~Sierra

netime, sierra! We're here for you! Oh, and in case you didn't know, Zac won't be on for a while. His internet is down, apparantly. Sucks! And you can't hurt yourself. That is wrong just as much as it is to hurt another. lyl!
Car

Carlee....I'm crying so hard right now. I feel so...dreadful. I wrote a poem about it, but its more painful than I described!!!!! Carlee, I want to scream so bad, I give up. I need Zac like soon!!!!! I'm going to die he's the only guy friend I have left. I'm soo hurt!!!! *tear* please read it and tell me what you think!! love you lots Carlee!!

~Sierra

hey, you must remember our promise. i know that you think about this sometimes. i still do also. its apart of life i think. a test that can make u or break you. you must be strong i am here for you. no matter what happens i want to be your friend. i am sorry if you got a lil confused on my last poem. The One. but i luv u much anyways. and you better not ever forget that. you are like a sister to me now. im not sure why. but i just feel that i can really be close to you like that. i wanna take care of you even if its not in the hard times. you are a great friend. but i want to call you my sister from now on ok.lol. i know that might be weird but that is how i feel aite. well great freakin awsome poem you wrote here. keep up this awsome work. try to be on aim more so we can talk ok. Much Luv

No, Nick. Please don't talk to me, ever. This reminds me so much with Eddie. The first guy I ever fell in love with. He told me he loved me as a sister after I told him I loved him *tear* I broke my promise-too bad, so sad. I have nothing to lose anymore, so what the hell!! lol. Everything's down the drain, everthing that I've worked for. Killed, Demolished. Destroyed. The less you talk to me, Nick, the more misery you're saving me from. So, please, just....leave me alone. *tear* You really hurt me so bad. I'm removing you from my favorites, I won't respond to any emails you may leave, or any comments, I'm giong to try to forget that you ever existed. I hope life goes well for you. Not for me though, never has, never will be. Have fun with Jami-I'm sure she's a wondeful gal and really lucky. You deserve a lot Nick, seize it. Have a GREAT life!!

Seriously.

Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. Suicide is only one option out of the many.

~Sierra

I'm going to sleep now. So tired of everything. Please let these b a nightmare.

I love you sweetheart and think about you all the time. You know where I am and know I'm always here for you and know you cannot do anything foolish because Papa and I need you way to much. Your poems are wonderful and we are so proud of you! Love you NANA

Sweet deal that was cool! do what u do and do it well bye!

i won't lol. You're right. I do need to be cheered, there's just nothing that brings a lot of cheeriness in my life other than Sunny. She's amazing and really sweet. There need to be more people like her out there!! I've stopped cutting, hopefully for the last time!! Thanks though!

omg sh*t u really mad me feel like someone in that comment you left me i mean seriously to kno u really care about me means alot not many people understand me and i get a feeling from you that u do understand....... You can't be explained as a friend ever! only as a BEST friend.... i have no idea how you can write poems the way u do...and each one makes me feel so many different emotions i can't explain... and don't worry about nick i think he just needs a little time to think if you know what i mean.... i am glad i can talk to you i need to let some things out but i don't know if my friends can handle it and you seem like you have been through a hell of alot and that is one of the reasons i look up to u and u don't care what anyone thinks u r the best gyal anyone could want as a friend
lots of luv
ally

Alyson!! Omg, that's so sweet. lol-I can see you seriously take my poems to heart, and I'm REALLY, extremely flattered. And I do care about you and an occasional reminder is always good. I will try my very best to understand you, but I'm pretty sure it won't be that hard. That last line was soo sweet!!! But, despite what you said, I have no REAL friends offline. They all wish me dead and its a long, horrific story because they found out that I started cutting-I've stopped. But I had rumors going on and on about me. And people keep bringing up my past and it's all really a neverending nightmare. lol, and you do have one thing right-I've gone through a hell of a lot, and so much pain, maybe not as much pain as some other people, but its still there. Thanks hun!! So sweet!! You're an incredible friend, and I'm ecstatic that you're one of mine!

:-D!!

~Sierra

well those people who dun like you really need to get a life and they r missing out on someone, they might not know it but they sure as hell dun deserve yah.. i kno what you mean i only have three real friends offline and sometimes they talk behind my back so i guess i can't call them real but they are the closest thing i have and my mom she doesn't get me and she thinks i should be the perfect A student and it pisses me off and i am 14 and i can't go to partys because she thinks i am still to young when people who are 11 go to the types of things i can't and my mom is always getting drunk....my life is just frigged up and at school i dun think they hate me or like me i am just not noticed. O yah i am grounded this weekend because i talked back to her and my dad so the only thing i have is the computer... o if u want to know more about me i live in the carribbean lol isn't that kool yah i live in Grand Cayman it is between jamaica and miami btu whenever i say carribbean people think i am black i dunno y but they do and i am white lol well u r like the only person on the website i really talk to as a friend and it rocks you r very special with a unuiqe style

lots of love xoxox
i thought when u said cyber huggles i laughed i find it cute lol

Ally

read ur new poem again very very very gud i couldn't believe it :)-

Very well written poem. I use to cut myself too. I have learned how to deal with my pain a different way. When I first tried to quit cutting I wasn't quitting for myself I was quitting for my family, and finance because I could see how much I was hurting them but I soon went back to doing again after my friend commited suicide. After a few months I realized what I was doing to myself, and I quit for myself. NO one can make you stop but yourself you just have to find someother way to take your pain, and anger out. I myself just go into a room by myself, and sometimes just scream in a pillow or just sit, and think. If your cutting gets to bad I would seek help. After losing all the friends I've lost reciently I've realized how precious life really is. I try not to take life for granted anymore. I pray you can find a way to stop cutting. If there is anything I could help you with. Please e-mail me I am a good listener. My e-mail address is dreamerstar2005@yahoo.com.
My thoughts, and prayers are with you. Good poem keep up the good work 5** from me.
~Krystle (Sweet Angel)

*tear* that's a very sad poem. very sad, it was written very nicely, and i enjoyed it, great job. keep writting. awsome

thanks Kit. :)